My additude lately

I've always been a short tempered person, always.

Yet I have to say myself, the way I've been acting lately has been kind of off the wall. I have been extremely short with my parents and people around me; I know that this is partially because I've been under so much stress lately but, I kind of feel guilty about it.

It seems though, that they are doing everything in the world to piss me off, everything, even though I know they are looking out for my best intrest. All that plus school has got my teeth on edge and I don't know how to deal with it. I know they are'nt trying to make my life suck so bad but they are; I wish that I could go off by myself and finish out school without them but that's impossible. What makes this even worse is that they just got me a car! I feel sometimes that I don't deserve it and that they regret getting it for me.
That sucks so bad, I can't even explain the way it feels to think your unworthy of stuff.

My parent's and I have been getting into fights on a daily basis and even with how turbulent our family is, that isn't normal, especially between my dad and I. I wish I could be one of those people who could deal with stress and not let it change who they really are inside been. But then the question comes in: Am I really a mean, hateful person? I hope to god I'm not.

At school I know my friends have noticed the way I've been acting because it seems so different between us. I worry daily that my classmates don't think I'm a terrible person so I try my damnedest to be different. With all that at home and school, my personality is in a constant state of flux.

I really hate this.